The new year has begun and so it is time to make the new years resolution. Many people make them and break them and take them for granted. Nobody really takes them too seriously. My past ones barley set in reality and focused more on dreams and wishes. This year though I want to make one that is possible to fulfill and one that ultimately must be done.
I wish to be a better person. A lady in all the sense. The past five years of incidents have turned me hard and brazen. things I have never wished to be. I speak too frankly and not in the sense of cursing and disturbing saying but in the sense of hiding nothing and being blunt.
It's an innocent way I suppose and I never mean harm, but I guess secrets truly aren't safe with me. why can I never learn to keep my mouth shut? I often end up feeling so guilty afterward you'd think I'd stop.
Now though if I don't stop then somebody may just walk away. I couldn't handle being alone because I couldn't stay quiet. I want to be happy, but mostly I want to deserve to be happy. I don't deserve right now but gosh darn-it I'm trying so hard. If I blow this I swear I'll hate myself even more. If that's even possible.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
No comments:
Post a Comment